I feel so alive
My heart filled with so much joy
Despite and in spite of circumstances
My mind is at peace
I am just so full of emotions
It's quite challenging to keep up
I can hear the beating of my heart
As if it's beating its last beat
I don't know what lies ahead
What to think, how to feel
But God, I hope you'll put order in the chaos
Because I simply cannot do without You
I am so desperately in love with You
Sometimes, I feel like I don't care living in this world
Sometimes, I feel so darn ready to be with you
I can't wait to be with You, Oh God
When will we be together?
Because I can't seem to wait any longer
Friday, December 29, 2017
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
31 Wonderful Years
Tuesday, December 26, 2017
31 Wonderful Years
Thank You, Oh Lord, for the 31 wonderful years you have gifted me.
I just couldn't ask for more than the love you've shown me.
The love You made me feel
This love that made me real
I cannot put into words
What I really feel in my heart
Because you know, words are not enough
I just want to thank You
For all the Blessings,
The Graces, I have received
Your Forgiveness and Providence
Strength, Courage, and Patience
Protection, and Guidance, Everything!
You are my All in All
Thank You for being You
You've always been kind and generous
Faithful and true
I thank You for the gift of You
I thank you for all my family and friends
Through them, I am beyond blessed
Overjoyed and overloved
Simply said, Thank You and I love You too!
#31WonderfulYears #Birthday #SuperBlessed #ForeverGrateful
Will You?
If I tell you I like you
How would you feel?
Will you retreat?
If I tell you I love you
Do you love me too?
Or will you just go?
If I tell you I really do
Will we be awkward?
Will we just forget it, and just let go?
If I tell you I want to be with you
Will you run and hide?
Or will you please stay?
If I tell you I want to hug you
Will you hug me back?
Or will you leave and stay away?
If I tell you I want to hold your hand
Will you hold mine too?
Or will you push it away?
If I tell you I want to journey life with you
Will you be open and willing?
Will you want and need me too?
How would you feel?
Will you retreat?
If I tell you I love you
Do you love me too?
Or will you just go?
If I tell you I really do
Will we be awkward?
Will we just forget it, and just let go?
If I tell you I want to be with you
Will you run and hide?
Or will you please stay?
If I tell you I want to hug you
Will you hug me back?
Or will you leave and stay away?
If I tell you I want to hold your hand
Will you hold mine too?
Or will you push it away?
If I tell you I want to journey life with you
Will you be open and willing?
Will you want and need me too?
Just Love
Boy, don't you know you keep slipping into my thoughts.
KSP kau ka besh! Ug ngano mani Lord Pasabta ko?
Lord ngano diay tuod ni?
Sometimes you can't choose who to love.
Usually, it just happens for no apparent reason.
The only thing you're sure of is your hit.
Gosh, this is some kind of crazy!
Totally unexpected, it just clicked, and I am hooked.
And let me just ask, for the record,
What did I see in you? What?
I must really be crazy now!
God, is this a joke?
Please don't kid me like this.
Please pretty please!
But then again, you don't need any reason right?
Yes, there you go again,
Contemplating on everything
Overanalyzing
Take your time
Trust me
Just love
KSP kau ka besh! Ug ngano mani Lord Pasabta ko?
Lord ngano diay tuod ni?
Sometimes you can't choose who to love.
Usually, it just happens for no apparent reason.
The only thing you're sure of is your hit.
Gosh, this is some kind of crazy!
Totally unexpected, it just clicked, and I am hooked.
And let me just ask, for the record,
What did I see in you? What?
I must really be crazy now!
God, is this a joke?
Please don't kid me like this.
Please pretty please!
But then again, you don't need any reason right?
Yes, there you go again,
Contemplating on everything
Overanalyzing
Take your time
Trust me
Just love
Beautiful Mess
How can this be?
You are a special kind of special
Am I too fond of you now? How can this be?
But then the real question is, how can I not be?
I was just being me
You were just being you
Why do I almost always miss you so?
Why do I always want to see you?
This part I can't quite comprehend
This part I can't quite comprehend
You are a special kind of special
If you know what I mean Haha!
There is something about you that captivated me
I just love talking to you
I love myself being around you
I simply enjoy your company
Am I too fond of you now? How can this be?
But then the real question is, how can I not be?
Surely, I need a cure for this mess
Do you have some sort of a pill?
I need it to cure this
This somehow beautiful mess
This somehow beautiful mess
Monday, December 25, 2017
I cannot be without You
You fill every corner, every space, every cell, deep within me.
Your heavenly love overflows into my entire being.
A love that is faithful and genuine.
I rejoice in the knowledge of You.
Your self-sacrifice is a real testament of how it is to love.
How sweet. How lovely. How true.
I love You. I love You. I love You so.
Truly, I love You without a shadow of a doubt.
No, I cannot be without You.
Your heavenly love overflows into my entire being.
A love that is faithful and genuine.
I rejoice in the knowledge of You.
Your self-sacrifice is a real testament of how it is to love.
How sweet. How lovely. How true.
I love You. I love You. I love You so.
Truly, I love You without a shadow of a doubt.
No, I cannot be without You.
Saturday, December 23, 2017
Why can't I just leave you be?
Why can't I just leave you be?
You struck a chord in my heart
No butterflies in my stomach
Yes, there are none
Just sincerity I found in you
Bare, Naked, Stripped
Unmasked, No pretense
And yes,
"For a moment there, I looked into your eyes
It was like I saw your heart and soul
A desperate longing to truly love and be loved
Yearning for a love to make you feel real"
You struck a chord in my heart
No butterflies in my stomach
Yes, there are none
Just sincerity I found in you
Bare, Naked, Stripped
Unmasked, No pretense
And yes,
"For a moment there, I looked into your eyes
It was like I saw your heart and soul
A desperate longing to truly love and be loved
Yearning for a love to make you feel real"
Friday, November 17, 2017
Blank Space
I feel weird, I feel numb
Yet at the same time, my heart aches
I don't even know why
It's like drinking coffee
Then getting heartburned
Or whatever that is
See, I was having this conversation
Show me, surprise me
So, I wondered and waited and waited to see
I don't know what to expect exactly
Oh, there it goes now
I'm indifferent every time
My mind's fleeting
Caught myself staring
My thoughts already missing
I wonder how I wonder why
Only time will tell
These moments are but memories fading
Maybe not now, but someday
Suddenly, I'm at a blank space
Yet at the same time, my heart aches
I don't even know why
It's like drinking coffee
Then getting heartburned
Or whatever that is
See, I was having this conversation
Show me, surprise me
So, I wondered and waited and waited to see
I don't know what to expect exactly
Oh, there it goes now
I'm indifferent every time
My mind's fleeting
Caught myself staring
My thoughts already missing
I wonder how I wonder why
Only time will tell
These moments are but memories fading
Maybe not now, but someday
Suddenly, I'm at a blank space
Monday, November 13, 2017
The Love I Have Received
It's almost 4am I keep tossing and turning
My mind is filled with thoughts of You
It cannot be silenced
So here I am, I'm up once again
With nothing left to do
But write these thoughts of You
I thank You for the many gifts You gave
When I look back on how far I've gone
Gives me peace cause, You were there all along
In every person, I meet, You blessed
We may be broken and torn
But we are never alone
"What is Your wisdom in all these?"
The people in this life, in my life
"What do I have to give?"
Indeed, constantly, it will always be
Your beautiful love
The love I have received
My mind is filled with thoughts of You
It cannot be silenced
So here I am, I'm up once again
With nothing left to do
But write these thoughts of You
I thank You for the many gifts You gave
When I look back on how far I've gone
Gives me peace cause, You were there all along
In every person, I meet, You blessed
We may be broken and torn
But we are never alone
"What is Your wisdom in all these?"
The people in this life, in my life
"What do I have to give?"
Indeed, constantly, it will always be
Your beautiful love
The love I have received
A Thousand Words
And I could write a thousand words
Maybe even ten thousand
Still, it wouldn't be enough
To express how I feel
I could stay like this forever
Inspired in every way
Just happy every day
Yes, You Oh God
No turning back
Because yesterday is history
You, now, here with me
A moment so beautiful
Grace-filled
Love in abundance
Sent from above
I could not ask for more
Simply content
In pain and sorrow
In fulfillment and joy
Oh God, You never fail
With all my strength
I praise you
A faithful God
You showed Your might
There is no one like You
You hold my hand
Carried me through
Lightened up my burdens
Send my worries away
Oh, I just love You, every moment of every day!!!
Maybe even ten thousand
Still, it wouldn't be enough
To express how I feel
I could stay like this forever
Inspired in every way
Just happy every day
Yes, You Oh God
No turning back
Because yesterday is history
You, now, here with me
A moment so beautiful
Grace-filled
Love in abundance
Sent from above
I could not ask for more
Simply content
In pain and sorrow
In fulfillment and joy
Oh God, You never fail
With all my strength
I praise you
A faithful God
You showed Your might
There is no one like You
You hold my hand
Carried me through
Lightened up my burdens
Send my worries away
Oh, I just love You, every moment of every day!!!
Obedient and True
Here I am, heart in hand
Many hopes, many dreams
So many it seems
Here I am, soul-searching
Times can be confusing
Sometimes I'm refusing
Here I am, eagerly yearning
For something worth living
For something worth changing
Here I am, desperately looking
My heart aching
Sadly, it's breaking
Here I am, longing
To find joy and meaning
To fill days worth experiencing
Here I am, thirsting
Not quite sure but expecting
Oh God, I can't help feeling
I want nothing more than to know You
And love just like You do
A perfect love, blemish free
Yes, My God, nothing more
Just be obedient and true
Many hopes, many dreams
So many it seems
Here I am, soul-searching
Times can be confusing
Sometimes I'm refusing
Here I am, eagerly yearning
For something worth living
For something worth changing
Here I am, desperately looking
My heart aching
Sadly, it's breaking
Here I am, longing
To find joy and meaning
To fill days worth experiencing
Here I am, thirsting
Not quite sure but expecting
Oh God, I can't help feeling
I want nothing more than to know You
And love just like You do
A perfect love, blemish free
Yes, My God, nothing more
Just be obedient and true
Sunday, November 12, 2017
Sad and Lonely Place
For what is life without love?
Tell me, is it really worth living?
You, yes, you, scared and scarred
Shattered pieces, scattered
Abandoned, angry, awful
Betrayed, broken, burdened
Corrupted, cold, cursed
Disgusted, desolate, denial
How long will I be in this darkness?
How long will I have to wait?
I cannot leave nor runaway
For so long it has been my home
It's a sad and lonely place
Only I, myself, alone
Knows I am here
Crying out but no one hears
It's a sad and lonely place
Like being out of grace
To wallow in my pain
Because there is nothing left to gain
It's a sad and lonely place
In my heart, I know
I want to let go, I need to leave
But what do I do, because yes, I still grieve
It's a sad and lonely place
No one else will ever feel
Everything I have felt is real
Sometimes like it's surreal
It's a sad and lonely place
One day soon
Someday soon
I will break this cocoon
Tell me, is it really worth living?
You, yes, you, scared and scarred
Shattered pieces, scattered
Abandoned, angry, awful
Betrayed, broken, burdened
Corrupted, cold, cursed
Disgusted, desolate, denial
How long will I be in this darkness?
How long will I have to wait?
I cannot leave nor runaway
For so long it has been my home
It's a sad and lonely place
Only I, myself, alone
Knows I am here
Crying out but no one hears
It's a sad and lonely place
Like being out of grace
To wallow in my pain
Because there is nothing left to gain
It's a sad and lonely place
In my heart, I know
I want to let go, I need to leave
But what do I do, because yes, I still grieve
It's a sad and lonely place
No one else will ever feel
Everything I have felt is real
Sometimes like it's surreal
It's a sad and lonely place
One day soon
Someday soon
I will break this cocoon
How could I ever not love You?
This lonely soul was searching
For something worth living
Empty promises left my heart broken
This world, this life, what now?
Behold I saw, in the midst of it all
You were there just standing still
Brave and bold, strong and tall
How could I not fall?
I yearned to be like You
Longing to be with You
In every waking hour
I seek to see your face, but where?
Being without You is never an option
For I would be lost and cold and blue
Yes! Certainly, I'd be miserable without You
So tell me how could I ever not love You?
For something worth living
Empty promises left my heart broken
This world, this life, what now?
Behold I saw, in the midst of it all
You were there just standing still
Brave and bold, strong and tall
How could I not fall?
I yearned to be like You
Longing to be with You
In every waking hour
I seek to see your face, but where?
Being without You is never an option
For I would be lost and cold and blue
Yes! Certainly, I'd be miserable without You
So tell me how could I ever not love You?
Because of You I was loved
"You cannot give what you don't have", I have heard that phrase and it stuck to me like a stubborn bubble gum.
I love because I was first loved
Oh how grateful I am to have been pursued
To think someone as unimportant as me
You have given attention and time
Sinful yet forgiven
Broken yet mended
Hurt yet healed
Stained yet washed clean
Because of You
My eyes were opened
My heart found peace
My soul awakened
Because of You
I will never ever be the same again
Because of You
I am set free
Because of You
I love because I was loved
I love because I was first loved
Oh how grateful I am to have been pursued
To think someone as unimportant as me
You have given attention and time
Sinful yet forgiven
Broken yet mended
Hurt yet healed
Stained yet washed clean
Because of You
My eyes were opened
My heart found peace
My soul awakened
Because of You
I will never ever be the same again
Because of You
I am set free
Because of You
I love because I was loved
Sunday, November 5, 2017
Mystery in Misery
Fear-clouded mind
Uncompensated love
Different perspective
Drowning in thoughts
Gasping for breath
Bleeding heart
Beautiful scars
Mystery in misery
Good in the bad
No regrets
Just lessons learned
Uncompensated love
Different perspective
Drowning in thoughts
Gasping for breath
Bleeding heart
Beautiful scars
Mystery in misery
Good in the bad
No regrets
Just lessons learned
Thursday, October 26, 2017
The Best of Me
For God's knows the desires of my heart, in His most perfect time, I wait patiently. In His arms, I am joyfully at peace.
#GodsLove is molding #TheBestOfMe. #ThankYouJESUS
As I patiently wait in this land
As the Father finds it just
I wait for what is rightly mine
In His time all the desires
This heart could ever have
Will be graciously fulfilled
I am joyful and at peace
Knowing He has
My best interest at heart
In my countless flaws
I yearn to be perfected
Only in thy Saviour's Hand
Monday, October 23, 2017
Somewhere in the middle
Sometimes you find yourself in tears
Staring at a blank space
Thoughts racing
Heart in hand
Pierced and scared
So much to do
Nowhere to go
Feeling helpless
In the middle
At a crossroads
Staring at a blank space
Thoughts racing
Heart in hand
Pierced and scared
So much to do
Nowhere to go
Feeling helpless
In the middle
At a crossroads
Thursday, October 19, 2017
Posture of the Heart
This is exactly how I feel.
God is Enough (Liveloud)
Your grace is sufficient, Your embrace is all needed
To be with You my God, Is all I ever desire
Oh God is enough for me, Nothing else will ever be
And I am satisfied, For I have found my peace
I Give My All (Hillsong)
And I give my all (Take me as I am)
I am Yours Oh God (Lead me to Your arms)
And I will give You praise (cause I rejoice in You)
'Til the end of my days, I give my all
Thursday, July 27, 2017
Just saying!
Sometimes I just can’t help but be hurt by the words that struck my heart. No matter how I rationalize that it’s okay, that I am okay, that everything is okay and that I should not be hurt by what people say because everyone is entitled to their opinion anyway. That what they say isn’t necessarily true. But the truth is, it is not okay and I am not okay. And honestly, it does hurt.
People will always have something to say. People will always have an idea of how you should live your life. And sometimes it is just so suffocating and you can’t help but retaliate with a sarcastic comment and a bruised pride. Well, even though I know for a fact that they don’t mean to hurt me, that they did that because of their concern for me. I just can’t help but have this hurt feeling. Yes, that just proves that I am HUMAN. I am human after all.
Well, I guess I do need a kick in the butt. I know I haven’t been really living up to expectations nor to my fullest potentials. Yes, I admit that I have been slacking off. But can’t I have a break? Can’t I have this moment to myself? Can’t I be free of the cares of everyone else but my own? Is it a crime to take a moment and figure out what I need to figure out for myself? Will you please get off my freaking back?
Oh yes! You have gazillions of ideas of what to do if you were in my place. Yes, you could have done this and that, and whatever it is that you can think of. But here is a fact, the thing is you are NOT me and I am not YOU. So live your life and I live mine, thank you. Let me live my life because I sure do hope you are living yours well.
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
Back to Basics: Living
I was checking my Facebook messages and a friend in one of my groups, posted a link to an article written by Anna Cosio about Nadine Lustre’s ambush interview where she said, “ It’s 2017… If that was true, so what? There are younger couples who do that… It’s normal na… Come on, guys. Let’s all just be open-minded.” In her comment, she neither admitted nor denied the issue at hand.
Anna cited some sociological studies where cohabitation is disadvantageous especially to women where she concluded, “Cohabitation is not the way to go for a successful marriage… That is why I hope that Ms. Lustre’s younger female fans would not take her word as gospel.”
Now, there has been an ongoing debate about cohabitation. Premarital cohabitation and what not has been in existence for the longest time. And we must remember that there is always two side of a coin. There will always be Pros and Cons. And people will always have differing opinions.
Feanne wrote an article in defense to Nadine, stating it’s none of our business, and that, they have the right to do whatever it is they want in their personal lives. While this is true and I could not agree more,, it is important to note that being a celebrity, you are in a spotlight and are being looked up by the thousands if not millions of youth, so you have to be extra cautious of your actions since people will always associate you as a “role model”.
As for the public especially the youth, you have to strive to know better. We all have that responsibility to develop ourselves and be responsible for what we say or do. And while maturity does not necessarily come with age, I urge everyone to be careful of everything we hear and believe in because they become our principles in life.
There are many things that distract us from living “life”. A lot of things attack the very core of our existence. We fall prey, time and again. What I am trying to say is, the constant battle between good and evil in every generation is that evil does not only tempt us but make us believe that it is okay and acceptable because everyone is doing it. Just because everyone is doing it and we have become open-minded and liberated, doesn’t make it right. We have to be mindful; it might be a wolf in a sheep's clothing.
Again, the biblical wisdom of to do and what not to do have always been there to remind us that there are consequences of our actions, whether or not we follow, the decision is upon us. God does not impose these to us. Remember, we have free will. Love and respect have a major part in this day and age, whether it is in the decision one has made, between peoples, or the between partners.
The fact remains, we are all sinners. As it is written in John 8:7, it says, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her”. Stop the hating and pointing fingers. Instead, let us be mature and responsible in living our lives pleasing and acceptable to God. Whether which side you are on, you are not accountable to anyone but yourself and your God.
Much love ❤
Marriage & Divorce 2.0
I saw in the news today, a lawyer said divorce should be allowed. Again, going back to what is written in the bible, "What God has joined together, let not man separate" Matt19:6; Jesus answered, "It was because of your hardness of heart that Moses permitted you to divorce your wives, but it was not this way from the beginning. Matt19:8
I always remember these verses when confronted with issues about marriage and divorce. Well, guess it really got stuck to me because I had already written about it some years ago. You may read it here.
While there might be instances that it's better to break up especially if one is abused, etc., but other than that, you really need to work on it. More often than not, it is just a miscommunication or no proper communication at all.
While there might be instances that it's better to break up especially if one is abused, etc., but other than that, you really need to work on it. More often than not, it is just a miscommunication or no proper communication at all.
I am reminded by what I read earlier today in an article, after meeting his wife when they were 15 years old, friends for 10 years, and married for a year and a half, the author realized and said to his dad "Marriage is not for me". Then, his father told him that he is being selfish and indeed, marriage is not for him. It is for a family, for future children and for the person he married.
True enough, marriage is not about our happiness and what we want in a relationship. Rather, marriage is about the other person. You marry because you want to make the other person happy. It is forgetting about yourself and thinking about how the other person feels. You marry simply because you love. And when you love you give. Loving is not taking.
Personally, I forget this at times. I often hear some say "Love makes the world go round". Then, I would at back of my mind murmur, love is so overrated. Duh?! O.A. kau.. Kabusy bah.. Lol.. :P But really, I have those moments. Then, I am reminded that the primary purpose of our creation is to love. Our mandate is simplified into two things: Love God and love our neighbors. Just these two things, if we do it we will simplify our lives.
But of course, we are hard headed. Stubborn, just like that, we wage war against each other, we become envious of others' successes and rejoice in their failures, we most of the time get wrapped up in our own world we forget to think of and love others. We end up frustrated, unfulfilled, lost, and just tired of life.
There is too much negativity arround us. We suck it up daily as much as we can until one way or another we become desperately miserable in our darkness. Just because we focus on ourselves too much. We have allowed ourselves to be selfish and grumble about our circumstances. We become ungrateful. Unappreciative of what God has graced us with.
Well, I guess, love really is the missing link. Love is the answer to all of our problems then. For without love, is life really worth living?
So keep loving! Praying for you! 💚
True enough, marriage is not about our happiness and what we want in a relationship. Rather, marriage is about the other person. You marry because you want to make the other person happy. It is forgetting about yourself and thinking about how the other person feels. You marry simply because you love. And when you love you give. Loving is not taking.
Personally, I forget this at times. I often hear some say "Love makes the world go round". Then, I would at back of my mind murmur, love is so overrated. Duh?! O.A. kau.. Kabusy bah.. Lol.. :P But really, I have those moments. Then, I am reminded that the primary purpose of our creation is to love. Our mandate is simplified into two things: Love God and love our neighbors. Just these two things, if we do it we will simplify our lives.
But of course, we are hard headed. Stubborn, just like that, we wage war against each other, we become envious of others' successes and rejoice in their failures, we most of the time get wrapped up in our own world we forget to think of and love others. We end up frustrated, unfulfilled, lost, and just tired of life.
There is too much negativity arround us. We suck it up daily as much as we can until one way or another we become desperately miserable in our darkness. Just because we focus on ourselves too much. We have allowed ourselves to be selfish and grumble about our circumstances. We become ungrateful. Unappreciative of what God has graced us with.
Well, I guess, love really is the missing link. Love is the answer to all of our problems then. For without love, is life really worth living?
So keep loving! Praying for you! 💚
The Man Who Can't Be Moved
I don't know why I feel quite weird breathing kind of like a chest pain or something. Perhaps because of the smell of paint. I was painting the other room earlier. Or it could be the coffee I drank. I usually kind of palpitate when I have some. I know I shouldn't but I got tempted! I'm not sure which one cause it.
So it's 2:17 in the morning and as always I'm in zombie mode, reading and I felt like writing as well, while the rest of the world is sleeping. It has been a while since I have written again. Hah! Anyway, I'd like to share with you this beautiful song entitled "The Man Who Can't Be Moved" by The Script. When I heard this song for the first time some years ago, I immediately loved it. The tune, the lyrics, the storyline, it is a beautiful song.
It somehow moved me through a different level. It made me reflect and realized that like the relationship we have with God, even if how many times we rebel and run away from Him, we will always have a home. We will always have someone to go back to. He is going nowhere but staying put. He is not moving no matter where we go, what we are doing, where life leads us. God will always be there. He will faithfully wait for us until the day we come home to Him. This is one of the secular songs that surprisingly remind me of the God who is Not Moving and Constantly loves me no matter what.
Hope you enjoy it as much as I always do.
Love lots,
Vanz 😉
Right Time: Now
I honestly have so many things in my mind that it becomes too paralyzing. It seems that I'm caught up in an analysis-paralysis state.
I saw this on Goalcast: Whatever you're pondering about. Now is the right time.
I will always be #ForeverGrateful 💕😇
I saw this on Goalcast: Whatever you're pondering about. Now is the right time.
I hope I'd be able to overcome whatever this is. There is no time to waste. May I ultimately be wise in my decisions, be obedient to God's will, be able to do what is right, and most of all bring back all the glory to Him who is always faithful and true. Not because of what He has done for me but for simply being who He is.
I will always be #ForeverGrateful 💕😇
Tuesday, March 21, 2017
All of Me
I am grateful for every moment that has led me to this
moment, for every challenge that made me better and stronger, for every
disappointment and failure that has made me wiser and braver. I am grateful
that despite and in spite of my weaknesses, God has made me victorious.
Photo Credit: Thanks Kring |
I am grateful that I am now able to see the little wisdoms that He has put out for me to discover. I am grateful of the miracles I have experienced and the prayers that have been answered. Because, yes, there is not one of my prayers not answered yet.
Sometimes the answer comes too swiftly and sometimes I feel that it takes too
long. But eventually, I almost always later realize that it was already staring
at me and I was just too blind to see. I am grateful for all the things and
people He has anointed to fill my life with color and wonder.
I
will constantly long for something bigger than myself. I guess God has put that
autopilot mode on us. I know will never be satisfied in accomplishing things
because there is always something more out there. However, I will be fulfilled
in doing so. At the very least, I will vanish those “what if” thoughts and have
peace in knowing that I tried.
I am a work in progress, constantly changing,
constantly adapting. I dream to be better. I want to be the best because God
wants the best for me. Not only that, ironically, God not only wants the best
but also the worst. I remember a question in a story about offering, (The
person already offered his life, his heart and soul, everything he owned) then God asked, “what
about your sins?”
Indeed, He wants all
of me. J
Monday, March 13, 2017
Bolder
God has been so good to me. Let me count the ways and tell you why.
Last year, before the year ended, I found myself in a conversation with Him in a resolution that I will be bolder, in letting go of the things that hold me back, in stepping out in faith with Him, in doing what my heart and soul longs for, and, in living a life in the fullness of Christ. Finally, after taking my sweet time to discern about life and direction, I have come to a resolution that I will make as many memories to fill my days, take every opportunity, and live in the “now”.
I am just so overwhelmed with the experiences that He gave me in the first quarter of the year. He took me back to Cebu during Sinulog to bond with my dear friend, Sheila who was vacationing for 2 months since November, we were supposed to meet in December but you know the Christmas season is so busy.
Not just that, I was even able to visit Leyte, Sheila’s hometown. We went around and had fun on the pristine beaches of Cuatro Islas in Inopacan and the now famous Kalanggaman Island in Palompon.
When we were back in Cebu, we bond over dinner with some of my cousins, stayed at my ever hospitable cousin April and her hubby Dondon. Then, I went and visited the Miraculous Shrine of Simala, Sibonga together with my Aunt Gemma and her family. It was their first time to visit the place and I bacame their tour guide. Then finally ended my, I think, 2 weeks laag with a free ticket back home thanks to Ate Sharon. Grabe jud si Lord mo hatag ug blessings. It overflows indeed! Nyahaha!
My Dear Friends for Keeps, Juvy missing, insert yourself! :) |
Not just that, I was even able to visit Leyte, Sheila’s hometown. We went around and had fun on the pristine beaches of Cuatro Islas in Inopacan and the now famous Kalanggaman Island in Palompon.
Yes, here is our Madam Sheila of Canada and Madam Principal Irene our Driver |
Unexpectedly, we met Congressman Carlos Cari of the 5th District
and his other politician friends.
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Jetskiing in Cuatro Islas, Inopacan, Leyte (For FREE, Yahoo!!! Thanks Cong!) |
Discovering Kalanggaman Island, Palompom, Leyte |
Loving this Island! :) |
When we were back in Cebu, we bond over dinner with some of my cousins, stayed at my ever hospitable cousin April and her hubby Dondon. Then, I went and visited the Miraculous Shrine of Simala, Sibonga together with my Aunt Gemma and her family. It was their first time to visit the place and I bacame their tour guide. Then finally ended my, I think, 2 weeks laag with a free ticket back home thanks to Ate Sharon. Grabe jud si Lord mo hatag ug blessings. It overflows indeed! Nyahaha!
Catching up dinner with Aunt Gemma, Uncle Dommy and cousins |
Miraculous Shrine of our Lady of Simala |
Then came February, just as I didn’t bother anymore to attend the 24th Singles for Christ – International Conference, He took me to Iloilo! Through brother Ace’s apparition, (Haha, he is inactive naman gud nikalit lang ug kabanhaw) I guess He really wanted me there. Yes, I don’t regret even a bit of it. The theme, “Stand Firm in Faith”, is true in every sense of the word. I am super glad I was able to attend the conference. As another bonus, I was able to visit the lovely islands of Gigantes and Guimaras, as well as bond with my uncle and cousins who I have not seen in a while. I got to see some of my wonderful friends in SFC Cebu and again found myself in Simala the second time, since Ace wanted to go and visit before he leaves for Canada.
Gigantes Islands, Iloilo |
Tangke, Gigantes Islands |
Guimaras Map |
The Famous Mango Trademark of Guimaras |
Yummy Mango Pizza!!! So Deli! Must try! |
Light House, Guimaras, Iloilo |
C'mon Le'ts Strike a Pose :) |
Bohemian Themed Club Praise |
During one of the Conference Sessions |
Credo Workshop about Defending our Faith |
5,300 Strong Singles for Christ Worshipping Together |
One MetroCatherdal CDO, One Great God! |
With Ace and my SFC C2A pretty ladies at the Conference |
Bonding over food at Larsian, Cebu City |
Before heading back home, I took the chance to meet with my good old buddies during my first job in Cebu. We are still very good friends until now. We don't see each other often but you know the feeling as if you were always connected, as if nothing has changed.
Smile! Wala si Jo.. Sad.. Maybe next time. |
Food is served. Yummy! |
Of course, it’s already March, I was supposed to take a trip to Manila but decided to just stay put. I thought I have gone to quite a number of places in a span of 2 months, I should give it a rest. But, wait there is more! My Dora friend Janet, sent me an invite which I accepted at the last minute. So, this time I was taken to Malaybalay, Bukidnon to witness the amazing mountains, Mt. Kibuwa and Kapayawan Ridge to be exact. Malaybalay is only a few hours away from home. I have been to the city and passed by it a lot. But this time, it was my first time to actually climb a mountain! It was VERY CHALLENGING! (CapsLock and exclamation para intense!) The trail wasn’t for first timers! It is definitely not for amateurs. I believe that it was for the pros.
It may look easy here, but trust me, NO, it's NOT!!! |
The climate was accommodating even if it rained a bit during our descend from Mt. Kibuwa and heavy towards the end of the trail. The guide and locals were saying that even if they climbed the area many years, swerte daw kau mi na group because it was the first time they have experienced the sea of clouds. I thought that was a daily phenomenon. We were told that many wanted to visit there not only aim to see the green scenery of the place but also wanting, hoping, praying to have a glimpse of that sea of clouds.
#FeelingAccomplished #GirlPower #AXAbabes :) |
No matter the difficulty of getting there, the slippery slopes, the muddy, rocky, grassy terrain that we step by step conquered. Maskin na umpak ko ika 6, na takilpo ko ika 2, natusok akong kamot ika daghan, na padidit ko sa pangpang na walai masking sagbot, kahoy, or bato na makoptan, as in pure lapok lang, thank God for gloves! But, worth it japon.
Cheers to making new friends and climbing mountains! |
First time ever jud ni nko na experience na climb bring a backpack load of almost 35lbs! Dli jud lalim diay ning mg climb climb. Mao na lagi ni wala mn unta me gi.sugo ug katkat sa bukid. Still, super worth it japon.
Sea of Clouds - Marvelously Perfect! |
It’s amazing what nature does to you. You feel everything, as in, literally everything - the warm heat of the sun, the pouring of the rain, the cool breeze of the wind, the muscles that tolerate every pain you feel, the sting you get as you grab the next branch you can get your hands on, the drop as you lose your balance going down the slope, the mud that you almost kissed as you slid down the cliff just to keep yourself from falling, the beat of your heart as if coming out of you as you catch your breath.
Mt. Kibuwa, Impasug-ong, Malaybalay, Bukidnon |
And, although you might already know, but it makes you realize and ponder more on so many things - that life can be lived simply and peacefully apart from the hustle and bustle of city life if you only choose, that it really is a beautiful world if only we open our eyes and embrace it, that it’s true the best things in life are free, that for every success you have to sacrifice, that it’s not always up nor down it is up AND down, that the cause of conflict is greed and selfishness but if we try to understand we may find peace, that there is a world out there just waiting for us to say “YES” to that next adventure, that indeed, I am super blessed in having to experience every detail of it. And that God never runs out of surprises and generosity in my life. And that, I should always say “YES” to Him because He is just waiting for me, so that with my Yes, I can bask in His riches in glory. And I could not ask for more than this. I am excitedly inspired. Indeed, it’s just PRICELESS.
Kapayawan Ridge, Impasug-ong, Malaybalay, Bukidnon |
#Overwhelmed #OverLoved #OverJoyed #AwesomeGod
Photo credits: Thanks to my good friends Ed, Ming, Harold, Mai, Lau, Ace, Sheila, Janet
My Greatest Love
Let me step out in faith
And do for you what you did for me
You gave your all your everything
You have been so generously kind
In all your ways, you leave me in awe
My Majesty, My God, My King
A love like no other
Cause everything that’s within me is You
You are the Core of my being, My All
Gained wisdom of what love is
Now I know, Love is You and to love is You
You are My Greatest Love
My Saviour, My Saving Grace
I will praise You forever until forever ends
I just love You, oh God, I can’t help it!
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