Do You See?

This lonely heart of mine is killing
What have I been missing?
It cuts to the throat down
To the very last tip

And I can barely breathe
Can you feel it? 
Do you see?
This misery I am willing
To let go and be set free!

But what is in it for me?
That's something I have to ponder
For I have thought and wondered
Wishing carelessly to live
No worries to give

For a thousand days to offer
Nothing more than this
So, shine on me like the sun
That I may go out to deliver
What I am here to, discover

Choice

I never knew we could be like this
What we have now never occurred to me
I guess it was God's plan to make our paths cross
And in a moment there, it struck me
I wasn't falling in love, in fact, I never did

I chose to love

It was a decision, to begin with
A decision I would have never made
If it weren't for the grace
Yes, I received, I am blessed
To be loved even more than I have
Even more, than I could ever give
What else can I do that I haven't done

Oh life is such a mystery!
It just amazes me

;p

Stranger

I thought you knew me

I thought you knew me well

It's been a while since we've come together

But how come you seem like a stranger

We've been getting along just fine

Whether we're together or far apart

The distance between us doesn't matter

For you, I have sheltered in my heart

So many things have happened 

We both might have changed

Days have quickly flown by 

And now it's like slipping away

All the memories linger

Still, haven't figured

Oh why you judged me 

Like you never knew me

Now to you, I feel like a stranger

Everything else is in danger

Written: August 27, 2012

Just a Thought

The thought just passed me by and I cannot be at peace without writing it down.

And so, "If you want something in life you not only wait for the right moment but you have to work for it to achieve it".

Simply said, "Just go for it!". And see how it will play out. Whether its favorable or not it doesn't matter because really the bigger risk lies in regretting why you never tried and wondering if there will be a second chance.

More often than not "You only got one chance and you just have to do it right".

In Moments of Silence 7.30.12

Have you forgotten? Many times you fall but I am always with you from beginning to the end for I am the Alpha and the Omega. There is nothing on this earth I cannot do for I am your Lord. Your God who is faithful. Faithful in all you do even if it means that you have sinned. I am ready to forgive. Just come to me and I will give you forgiveness. I will give you rest. All those who are tired, your burden is light for I will carry you amidst the hardships and trials that you face. It may seem so difficult but I tell you it is nothing compared to who I am and what I am capable of doing. 

Whatever you ask I will give you. Whatever you need I will provide because I am a generous. These things are just material things to me but if it makes you happy I will give it if it is good for your soul. I will give it for I want what is best for you. A life with me is what you need for I will strengthen you. I will give you hope when you are weary. I will clothe you  with my endless unconditional love. You will be full. Overflowing is my love. I will bless you and you will bless my name. You will rejoice and remain in my love for you already know the truth has been revealed for you that you may trust me and I shall set you free. Free from pains, sorrows, anguish, disgust and all your misfortunes. I will keep you safe, keep my promises that I will never leave nor forsake you. So remain in me and I remain in you. I am more than enough. Abundantly, I will bless you. 

My grace flows from age to age and you will have every bit of it because I love you. I always have and always will. I will never leave your side. Always remember that. There is nothing in this world that can separate you from me but sin. So I tell you sin no more, repent for I am a Forgiving God, Loving, Merciful and Kind. All that I am, I will give you. You will see I will reveal the plans I have for you in time. So do not worry for I am here for you always and forever. Amen. Believe and trust that I am here. I am here.

The Sunday! - Unexpected Household

I would like to share my experience about the recent household that we had last Sunday, August 14, 2011. It was just an ordinary Sunday so I thought. I was even tempted not to attend mass. But then again how could I not when God has been so good to me. I was able to spend time with my family and celebrate my dad's birthday the day before. They were actually not expecting that we would come home and be with them on his special day.

Little did they know that we were on our way home with my cousin Munching from Iligan on Friday night. Since we arrived early in Cagayan, we bought him a birthday cake and just roamed around divisoria and ate some street foods that we haven't eaten before. When we got home both my mom and dad were asleep. It was twelve midnight when we lighted up the candle of the cake and marched into their bedroom. They were so surprised why and how we got there. HAHAHA! They never would have expected that we will be home for the occasion because they thought we had exams and other activities for the week. They were right we did. In fact on that same day, we had our field trip for our Organization Theory class,  the Lord's Day of St. Micheal's Chapter and the Bantayan Island Conference that I wished I didn't miss. I invited our dear friends Luis and Jun Ace we enjoyed chatting and catching up for the loss time. I realized it has been almost a year I haven't seen Luis. When they went home, My sister Jane in St. Micheal's happen to be in Cagayan and she invited me to join their household at Camaman-an. Exhausted, I turned down her invite. I fell asleep. When I woke up, I thought of the opportunity of communing with God that I let it slipped away.  So I thought to myself "ah ok lng Sunday bitaw ugma magmass man ko.. hopefully kami tanan maka attend ug mass".

So back to the Sunday that I had. My mind was set to going to mass then temptation was lurking again telling me "na kapoi man lakaw oi" but rebuked it "Lord naa na pud ang temptation ohhh".

Then unexpectedly, Jun Ace called me up almost 2pm and told me that we will go to the CLP sa Nazareno Chapter.

So I asked "Do you have friends or know someone from there?

He said "naa 3 or 4" 

I asked "what time man diay mgstart?"

He said "2pm" said "ngeh! pgsure oi late nata ani la pako nakaligo and lau baya ni amo!"

He said" ok ra apas lng gud ta didto"

I told him "hmmm.. let me think about it hinuoon la pako nka mass".

Ana xa "ako pud but mgserve me 6:30pm na mass".

"Si Luis kuyog pud xa?"

"La nko na ignan."

"I contact xa basin ganahan sad xa kuyog."

"Sige sis, tawagan nko"

So when he called back, nanglaba pa daw si Luis. Haha! 

And judging from the sound of his voice and his efforts to call, he was dead serious!

So I agreed.

We were supposed to attend mass with my mom and dad but naa mn sla bisita so kami nlng ni swit kuyog. So indeed we met up with Jun Ace and his SFC sister Donna together we went to Patag elementary school where Nazareno chapter held their CLP. Amo naabtan didto is their meeting because humana ang CLP alangan 5pm na kaha me nka.abot ddito!! haha!

They warmly welcomed us. We introduced ourselves and sat to listen to their announcements and sharing about the recent Mindanaone conference and how they were blessed. When it was done we bid our goodbyes and thank yous. They said they were grateful to have us visit. We feel blessed that we were there that moment even if it was just a brief time. On our way to Cathedral we tried to contact Luis but he didn't answer. Thinking of the household I turned down, I suggested what if mghousehold ta noh. I always am fond of households. hehe!

 Acer said sge try nato ask ang uban.

We then attended the mass. Na late si Luis ky ala agas sa ila bukid. Hehe! So after the mass we gathered and some went home and others went to the wake of one of the father of an SFC member. But since dli kaila nla Luis and Jun Ace he opened to others who were left about having household. So then we went to a sister Claire's boarding house just close by. Starving, we bought food and ate first. hehe!

So we got started for the sharing, it was supposed to be about their MindanaOne Conference experiences but it wasn't. We ended up talking and sharing a lot about the revelation, personal experiences with the other side in the form of recurring nightmares or "urom", Illuminati, masonry, the US government, the Music industry, the famous and most successful artists, their songs, Tsunami in Japan, nuclear plants, war, UFOs, cults and their practices. These things are very scary as it seems very real. The ugly things that we see around us, the movies (few days before this we watched Emily Rose and the Rite), the injustices, murder, abortion, poverty, these are the manifestations of evil in the world.

Although we can't deny that there is fear in all these, that moment was an eye opener for me, for us that evil is indeed real. It is happening everyday! Evil is lurking in every corner waiting for its next victim. We should be vigilant, be aware of their strategies, know the truth and be on guard because the fact remains that this world is indeed a spiritual battle field. They are working day and night to study us know our weakness and attack us whenever they can. We shouldn't be blind to what is already in front of us. In all these negative things, let us steadfast in our faith, build that strong foundation in Christ Jesus, and have that hope that in all the chaos He will deliver us from evil.

Even though it wasn't the "pleasant" experiences that we shared, I would say that it was all worth it. I always believe that there is a purpose for the things happening in our lives whatever it may be. It is meant for us to learn, love, and bless others. I would like to encourage everyone to continue on struggling in all your circumstances. We may not know why we encounter such things but let us trust in God's wisdom. I encourage all to pray for one another, for the world, for the children, the leaders, the priest and missionaries that we all may stand strong and give victory to God Almighty - Always to seek on the things of God and do all that pleases him. Give Him your time after all it is not yours!

We are so blessed because really, God is all we need!!!;p

Written:  Thursday, August 18, 2011 at 5:18pm

Heart & Feet Together

It is only through You that I truly live!

To live is to love, to love is to God! To God is to live life joyfully with a humble and giving heart!

The heart and the feet must go together.

You might have the right heart of worship but you are not doing what is ought to be done.

Or you might be doing the right things but your heart is not in the right condition.
It might be full of arrogance and pride.
It may be selfish and deceitful seeking to be praised.

Written:  November 18, 2010

Everyday a New Beginning..

The gospel teaches that in the things we do like, by attending mass may we not do it

because of duty, ritual or tradition. But we do it out of being hospitable - welcoming a 

stranger to be a friend. This entails opening our hearts to the coming of Christ. Giving him 

the time and the opportunity to start a new beginning in our lives, to experience life itself 

that only he can give. Peace, Joy, Love. In this season, may we be true to our promises as 

he has been for us 

- someone who made us REAL...;p


Written: December 20, 2009

What now?!

This weary heart of mine
Makes me sick every now and then
It just sucks life out of me
Can barely breathe
I used to think it's mind over matter
If you don't mind it doesn't matter
But then again the cut is just too deep
It lingers . . . .
Pushes me to the edge
So easy to let myself drown
Into all the reasons
So lame to see myself fall

. . . . This desperate world needs to wake up and heal itself 

;p

Written: December 1, 2009

Oh.. why don't you just BURN?

Feels like I'm having a hard time breathing
Or just having a heavy heart
I don't know, it is like 
Now I'm feeling fine or good, even great!
But the next, I feel like torn
Feels like I'm lost
Hanging by a moment
Feels like the cut is just too deep 
No way to fix it 
Seems like I'm just damned forever
No way to undo it
Like whatever!
It makes no difference
'Cause I'm stuck here
With no where else to go
For all I care..
Burn!
;p