Be with me

After finally being able to finish my MBM last October and training for a home grown pharmaceutical company based in Quezon City. I haven't really done much in a while. Ever since I've moved back to my hometown, I've been an inactive Singles for Chist (SFC) member. I haven't sustained my prayer time. Although, I officially started the with the job this year. I really haven't engage much in any activities except attending the SFC International Conference held last February 14 - 16, 2014 just because it was already paid for. Oh and by the way it was there where I recently got engaged.

Now the 1st quarter has passed. But still all this time, I've been tossing and turning. I feel lost, confused and misplaced. I keep on questioning myself everyday "Am I on the right track?" because it doesn't feel right. I feel that I don't belong. It is not where I am meant to be. Simply put, I feel restless. I guess that is the perfect adjective to describe how I feel at this moment. I want to do so many things. I feel that I am meant to do many things. So many I don't know exactly where to start. Unfortunately, it seems like everything is jumbled up in my mind. It gets tiring. It drains my every energy. It brings me down. Oh this misery! But I know that if I just look close enough I'd see the bits and pieces of the purpose why I am here at this moment experiencing such. I know that somewhere here, there is wisdom waiting to be found. It's waiting to be seen.

Oh dear Lord be with me, help me to see, help me to learn. I desperately need you each step of the way.