Blank Space

I feel weird, I feel numb
Yet at the same time, my heart aches
I don't even know why
It's like drinking coffee
Then getting heartburned

Or whatever that is
See, I was having this conversation
Show me, surprise me
So, I wondered and waited and waited to see
I don't know what to expect exactly

Oh, there it goes now
I'm indifferent every time
My mind's fleeting
Caught myself staring
My thoughts already missing

I wonder how I wonder why
Only time will tell
These moments are but memories fading
Maybe not now, but someday
Suddenly, I'm at a blank space

The Love I Have Received

It's almost 4am I keep tossing and turning
My mind is filled with thoughts of You
It cannot be silenced

So here I am, I'm up once again
With nothing left to do
But write these thoughts of You

I thank You for the many gifts You gave
When I look back on how far I've gone
Gives me peace cause, You were there all along

In every person, I meet, You blessed
We may be broken and torn
But we are never alone

"What is Your wisdom in all these?"
The people in this life, in my life
"What do I have to give?"

Indeed, constantly, it will always be
Your beautiful love
The love I have received

A Thousand Words

And I could write a thousand words
Maybe even ten thousand
Still, it wouldn't be enough
To express how I feel
I could stay like this forever

Inspired in every way
Just happy every day
Yes, You Oh God
No turning back
Because yesterday is history

You, now, here with me
A moment so beautiful
Grace-filled
Love in abundance
Sent from above

I could not ask for more
Simply content
In pain and sorrow
In fulfillment and joy
Oh God, You never fail

With all my strength
I praise you
A faithful God
You showed Your might
There is no one like You

You hold my hand
Carried me through
Lightened up my burdens
Send my worries away
Oh, I just love You, every moment of every day!!!

Obedient and True

Here I am, heart in hand
Many hopes, many dreams
So many it seems

Here I am, soul-searching
Times can be confusing
Sometimes I'm refusing

Here I am, eagerly yearning
For something worth living
For something worth changing

Here I am, desperately looking
My heart aching
Sadly, it's breaking

Here I am, longing
To find joy and meaning
To fill days worth experiencing

Here I am, thirsting
Not quite sure but expecting
Oh God, I can't help feeling

I want nothing more than to know You
And love just like You do
A perfect love, blemish free

Yes, My God, nothing more
Just be obedient and true

Love Life

A life lived in love is the only life worth living. 

Sad and Lonely Place

For what is life without love?
Tell me, is it really worth living?
You, yes, you, scared and scarred
Shattered pieces, scattered

Abandoned, angry, awful
Betrayed, broken, burdened
Corrupted, cold, cursed
Disgusted, desolate, denial

How long will I be in this darkness?
How long will I have to wait?
I cannot leave nor runaway
For so long it has been my home

It's a sad and lonely place
Only I, myself, alone
Knows I am here
Crying out but no one hears

It's a sad and lonely place
Like being out of grace
To wallow in my pain
Because there is nothing left to gain

It's a sad and lonely place
In my heart, I know
I want to let go, I need to leave
But what do I do, because yes, I still grieve

It's a sad and lonely place
No one else will ever feel
Everything I have felt is real
Sometimes like it's surreal

It's a sad and lonely place
One day soon
Someday soon
I will break this cocoon

How could I ever not love You?

This lonely soul was searching
For something worth living
Empty promises left my heart broken
This world, this life, what now?

Behold I saw, in the midst of it all
You were there just standing still
Brave and bold, strong and tall
How could I not fall?

I yearned to be like You
Longing to be with You
In every waking hour
I seek to see your face, but where?

Being without You is never an option
For I would be lost and cold and blue
Yes! Certainly, I'd be miserable without You
So tell me how could I ever not love You?

Because of You I was loved

"You cannot give what you don't have", I have heard that phrase and it stuck to me like a stubborn bubble gum.

I love because I was first loved
Oh how grateful I am to have been pursued
To think someone as unimportant as me
You have given attention and time

Sinful yet forgiven
Broken yet mended
Hurt yet healed
Stained yet washed clean

Because of You
My eyes were opened
My heart found peace
My soul awakened

Because of You
I will never ever be the same again
Because of You
I am set free

Because of You
I love because I was loved

Mystery in Misery

Fear-clouded mind
Uncompensated love
Different perspective
Drowning in thoughts
Gasping for breath
Bleeding heart
Beautiful scars
Mystery in misery
Good in the bad
No regrets
Just lessons learned