I never knew love until you came - Romantic love, that is. You see, I have always stayed away from those things. I have stopped myself time and again from falling. I have kept my feelings at bay. I have built walls that have kept me safe for years. But, God had a different plan. He reached out to me. He healed me in so many ways than one. He saved me from a decision that would have changed the course of my life forever. I was healed and saved by grace. He revealed to me. He pursued me. And I helplessly fell for Him. He, little by little, changed my perspective. He, little by little, gave me wisdom. He, little by little, opened my heart.
He allowed me to be healed and be whole. He gave me the time I needed to grow in faith and love with Him. Then, he let me fall for you. I took the risk. I took the risk I was not willing to take with others who tried. I took the risk with you! You see, I have never loved anyone like I loved you. You were exactly who I prayed for. You were exactly the answer to my prayer. Perhaps, I never told you, but you were. You were, loving, caring, humble, kind, obedient, respectful, and generous, although, annoyingly funny, I still laugh at your silly jokes. You made me smile. You loved me more than I love myself. You made life worthwhile. We grew together in our love and faith in Him. That’s what I love in our relationship. God is in it. He is with us.
Mine was a difficult choice. It broke my heart to break up with you. You see, we could have been “almost” perfect for each other, almost, because no one is perfect after all. From the beginning until now, I have been constantly praying. I have been praying for the best for you. I have been praying for your happiness. I have been praying that God grant you the deepest desires of your heart. I have been praying for your good health. I have been praying for you to live a blessed life. Oh God, I have been praying! And even if I’m moving on, even if I’m moving forward, I honestly think about us and what we used to have and how we used to love. And that even for a period, those years we had, those moments which passed, I will forever cherish. And mind you, I will forever hold close to my heart. Because for a moment there, I thought that you were the one. Because for a moment there, I thought you will be my better half. Because for a moment there, I thought ours is my favorite love story.
