The Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Why do, whenever, I hear this song I feel utter sadness?

Like a deep lurking sadness in the depths of my heart

A kind of loneliness you tend to get lost in

A feeling that leaves you empty inside

That no one would ever want to feel

At the end of day, everyone want to belong and be loved 

A love where you are seen and heard

Something so genuine

To be valued, by your worth as a person 

Through all the pain and hurt and struggles

Longing for that feeling of home

Where you feel at peace regardless of whatever circumstance

Oh the choices we make

We live and breathe it, day by day

Holding on to that promise 

All is well, because that is a choice too

Looking forward to brighter days ahead 

When this lonely heart of mine will no longer be

Not because you complete me but I complete me

Journal 10/15/2020

 How He Loves

David Crowder Band

He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us oh
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us oh,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don't have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way

That He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

Journal 10/14/2020

 Give Me Faith by Elevation Worship

We Believe by Newsboys

This song by Elevation, "Give Me Faith" struck a chord in my heart. It resonates with me a LOT. 

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what you say
That you're good and your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give you my life

'Cause I may be weak
But Your spirit strong in me
My flesh may fail
My God you never will
I may be weak
But Your spirit strong in me
My flesh may fail
My God you never will

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Reading 1, Galatians 5:18-25 18 But when you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the Law. 19 When self-indulgence is at work the results are obvious: sexual vice, impurity, and sensuality, 20 the worship of false gods and sorcery; antagonisms and rivalry, jealousy, bad temper and quarrels, disagreements, 21 factions and malice, drunkenness, orgies and all such things. And about these, I tell you now as I have told you in the past, that people who behave in these ways will not inherit the kingdom of God. 22 On the other hand the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, trustfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control; no law can touch such things as these. 24 All who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified self with all its passions and its desires. 25 Since we are living by the Spirit, let our behaviour be guided by the Spirit Responsorial Psalm, Psalms 1:1-2, 3, 4, 6 1 How blessed is anyone who rejects the advice of the wicked and does not take a stand in the path that sinners tread, nor a seat in company with cynics, 2 but who delights in the law of Yahweh and murmurs his law day and night. 3 Such a one is like a tree planted near streams; it bears fruit in season and its leaves never wither, and every project succeeds. 4 How different the wicked, how different! Just like chaff blown around by the wind 6 For Yahweh watches over the path of the upright, but the path of the wicked is doomed. Gospel, Luke 11:42-46 42 But alas for you Pharisees, because you pay your tithe of mint and rue and all sorts of garden herbs and neglect justice and the love of God! These you should have practised, without neglecting the others. 43 Alas for you Pharisees, because you like to take the seats of honour in the synagogues and to be greeted respectfully in the market squares! 44 Alas for you, because you are like the unmarked tombs that people walk on without knowing it!' 45 A lawyer then spoke up. 'Master,' he said, 'when you speak like this you insult us too.' 46 But he said, 'Alas for you lawyers as well, because you load on people burdens that are unendurable, burdens that you yourselves do not touch with your fingertips.

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Praise be to YOU, Lord Jesus Christ!

06/18/2020

Breakfree
The Time Has Come
What a Beautiful Name w/ Break Every Chain

You see my wretched soul
My every flaw, my imperfections
Every scar, every brokenness within me
But yes, you love me just the same
Only you can see right through me and love me like that
God forever you reign!
Yours is the glory God forever you reign!
I love you! Thank you for being You!

Ezekiel 4 Ezekiel Acts Out the Siege on Jerusalem
5

The wrath of God to the rebellious nation, Jerusalem. He sends Ezekiel to warn them and turn from their wicked ways. Those who obey is saved. Those who doesn't will suffer punishment.

06/17/2020

Adonai
Mighty To Save
Broken Vessel

Judith Remains Faithful to Her Religion

"I cannot eat your food for I would e breaking the laws of my God. I will eat only what I have brought with me". As surely as you live, I have more than enough food to last until the Lord has used me to carry out his plan." -Judith 12:2-4

The Armies of the Eastern Tribes

Trust and prayed to God. They were answered by God. -1Chronicles 5:20


Jesus Chooses the 12 Apostles

"I have chosen you to be with me. I will also send you out to preach and you will have authority to drive out demons." -Mark 3:14-15

God of Impossibilities

How can I be without you God

When you love me this much

I am just in awe every time

I just can’t help but be amazed 

Of your generosity and boundless love

You fill my heart with such abundance

Those cold empty corners of my heart

The scars of the past

That deep hurt, that disbelief

You flood with such grace

Leaving me speechless

Just overwhelmed in tears of gratitude

You give me more than I deserve

Your love, oh that genuine love 

Flowing through every inch of me

Flowing through my life

In the very depths of my soul

What more can I ask God?

When you are my everything!

When you say a sinner like me can become a saint

I believe because you are the God of Impossibilities

All You Ever Did

All you ever did was love me
And that was your mistake
From start until the end
You were consistent
Persistent insistent

Yours was a love more
Than I could ever hoped for
It was true and pure
It was a love of a lifetime

You are brave to always choose to love
But I was not as brave as you are
I guess I was only brave enough to leave
I was only brave enough to walk away from what might have been

Your love on the, otherhand,
Until the end was relentless
I am grateful for making me feel
At least, once in my life
For making me feel like a queen

09/06/2018

That Tear

I was going to bid you goodbye as I leave Gazing upon your face I saw a glimpse of sadness Some sort of deep hurt buried alive You tried to keep your composure But yes, I felt it in the way you looked at me No matter how hard you try Yes, I did, I did see that tear That tear you kept from falling from your eyes

Everything that You are

God, my Saviour King

Thank You for counting me worthy 

To stand in Your presence to love and serve You

Thank You for continuously pursuing me

Your love is like no other

I will always be grateful 

All the days of my life 

For everything that You are <3 span="">

Thoughts of You

In my nothingness,
You made me whole

With Your Spirit,
You lead me

By Your selfless love,
You complete me

I shall forever be
In awe of your graciousness

My days will be filled
With wonderful thoughts of You